That moment when you find out the cat you worked on for ages and ages was put to sleep. He was a sweet kitty and I’m sorry it happened. I’m sorry they didn’t give him more of a chance.
I hate my job.
(I don’t. There are awesome moments. Saturday really took the cake though, and now this.)
I was tagged by ishouldbewhat again. I feel violated. :P
Nickname: On the internet I go by Tess. I just always liked that name better than my own, which was distorted early on into “lesbian” by some kids. I’ve been “Lehlie” at work, by coworkers who know about my pet peeve with the pronounced/unpronounced S.
Birthday: August (Leo)
Sexuality: Romantic asexual, with gray tendencies. I’ve been uncomfortable with touch for a long time (especially unsolicited emotional touches, like a hug from a coworker) but I’m getting better at it and with time and knowing someone I’m even better still.
Time Zone: Pacific Standard
What time and date is it there: September 1st, 8:35am
Average hours of sleep: 6-8
OTPs: Uhm… my own… characters. Yes. And the ones that other characters canon-ly end up with, for the most part. I have a bad time predicting that kind of thing and hate making up OTPs that won’t ever exist.
First word to come to mind: Haberdash. Although admittedly I thought of something weird.
Last thing I said to my family: ”See you later, dad.”
One place that makes you happy and why: My bed. I love sleep. I’d sleep 16 hours happily.
How many blankets do you sleep under: Currently, sheet + duvet insert + light quilt. On my regular bed it’s sheet + full duvet insert/cover. And… toss and turn for comfort and cool spots of the bed.
Favorite beverage: Uhh. Flavored things. Straight water is so bleh unless I’m dying of thirst and then it’s mana from the heavens. Favorite soda is Coke, favorite tea is jasmine/chai, favorite coffee is medium roast. Alcoholic drink is usually a Jack/Coke, or a raspberry or peach margarita or LIT.
I’m not tagging anyone on this one. But have at it, followers.
Rules: In a text post, list ten books that have stayed with you in some way. Don’t take but a few minutes, and don’t think too hard — they don’t have to be the “right” or “great” works, just the ones that have touched you. Tag ten friends, including me, so I’ll see your list.
NOT IN ORDER
1. Lady of the Forest by Jennifer Roberson - A retelling of Robin Hood. More gritty, no dancing foxes/rhinos/chickens. I read the book so often that it broke in half when I was in grade school, so I’d carry the parts around.
2. Jonathan Livingston Seagull by Richard Bach - Blahblahblah Christ story blahblahblah, I don’t love it for that. It made me feel like I could be more than just the fat kid that read on the bus if I worked hard.
3. Animal Farm by George Orwell - I often feel like a mix of Boxer and Clover, both oblivious and caring but with no real power.
4. The Illustrated Man by Ray Bradbury - Fantasy bits and pieces that were short but amazing.
5. No Death, No Fear by Thich Nhat Hanh - I have a hard time dealing with no longer existing, which my own religion says I still will but I don’t necessarily believe (not to mention I don’t practice it anymore so whatever). This book helped, just enough that I don’t freak out as I used to.
6. The Peter Principle by Laurence J. Peter/Raymond Hull - Via Wikipedia:
Anything that works will be used in progressively more challenging applications until it fails.
We rise to a level of ineptitude and from there onward stagnate, progressing only laterally in meaningless promotions.
7. The Tao of Pooh by Benjamin Hoff - Funny and sweet and an explanation of Taoism that I like.
8. A Walk to Remember by Nicholas Sparks - I remember it making me cry. I’ve never trusted a Nicholas Sparks book or book-inspired movie since.
9. Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier - I loved the anonymity of the narrator despite her central role, the way the housekeeper was so in love with Rebecca and her chilling interactions with the narrator… then the narrator turns into a stone cold bitch right near the end because bitches get things done.
10. Good Omens by Neil Gaiman/Terry Pratchett - Not by any means the last on this list, but the last because my brain fizzled and I actually had to go look at my bookshelf to see what was on there. The humor in this book combined with its general… I don’t know. It just makes it one of the first books I recommend to friends who have asked me what to read.
Honorable Mentions: Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, The Mirror of her Dreams, Blood and Feathers, So Much to Tell You, Brain on Fire, An Unquiet Mind, many others.
I’m alive. But dead at the same time. Will speak more tomorrow. I figured you’d get this but not be woken up.
do you ever feel like you’re just sort of
like all your friends go out and do things and get into relationships and like people that like them back and have fun and do stupid things with their best friends and instead of doing all that you’re just sort of this mildly entertaining thing that people take an interest in once in a while but they wouldn’t really care if it was gone
like you just sort of exist but you don’t really mean anything